I process things by writing and started this blog right away, keeping it private at first. We began searching out a community of individuals who had traveled this path before us and discovered that few, if any, had blogged about the journey until their child was a few years old. I resolved through my tears that I would share our ups, downs, fears, joys, and life online. I had already been blogging for years about our family's homeschooling journey and beginning another blog was easy and familiar. It was one of the few familiar things during that time.
There were ups and downs during the rest of the pregnancy but an underlying feeling of peace. We knew that God had created Mason and that this was no surprise to Him. We loved and looked forward to holding our son and getting to know his personality.
You can look at the bare facts - paralyzed, wheelchair, disabled, will never walk, cannot live without the lifesaving brain shunt that has failed six times already, a lifetime of surgeries ahead. Those paint a picture in gray that seems dark and sad and hopeless. It is an incomplete picture, woefully inaccurate.